Numbered Days

by Impact Church

“Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”Psalm 90:12

My daughter turns five this year. A truth, that honestly, is inconceivable. As a newborn she was colic. Therefore, she and I shared many mornings watching the sunrise without ever having slept. In the haze of sleep deprivation, her turning five seemed light-years away. Yet here we are. Soon I will leave her in a kindergarten classroom while my sweet husband is tasked with dragging me away. I’ll be the mom  sobbing like some kind of lunatic. I can hear time shouting, with volume I’d prefer to mute, “Like it or not here I come!”

Four years have passed. Four precious years consisting of a collection of moments that are unable to be retrieved. There are no do-overs and the clock simply can’t be rewound. James 4:14 says, “Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.” Life, here on earth, is astonishingly brief.

Over the past few weeks I’ve contemplated all I may have missed already. What did my kids want to show me while I scrolled aimlessly on social media? What divine set-ups have I overlooked hurrying through my self-imposed to-do list? Did I miss something of eternal significance when insisting on folding that last load of laundry?

I am thankful for the last 20 days of prayer and fasting. Fasting isn’t a new idea. It has, in fact, been shaping and reshaping individuals for centuries. This intentional stripping away of distractions and wholeheartedly leaning into God’s presence is good for us. Fasting has always had the profound ability to clear mental clutter and provide clarity and focus. It has, indeed, done that for me.

This has been a grounding and exciting time in the life of our church. James 4:8 says, “Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.” We have witnessed, collectively, the physical manifestation of this scripture in our church and homes. God has been faithful to come close and speak to us.

During this sacred time of seeking the Lord I’ve simultaneously gained a feeling of urgency. I am only just beginning to realize the brevity of life. This revelation, while startling, is a precious gift. The keen awareness that we only have so much time on earth can aid us in carefully considering how we spend our time. My prayer, moving forward, is that we would each fill our days with value by living undistracted for God’s glory and the advancement of His Kingdom!

My friends- there is absolutely nothing ordinary about today. Psalm 118:24 says, “This is the day the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it.” Today is a gift from God that we didn’t earn or deserve. Out of His goodness and generosity He has blessed us with it. We are charged with paying attention and stewarding it well. Certainly we will never have more time than we do now.

My provocation to each of us is to run aggressively on mission for God while we have time yet remaining. Resist putting things off until a tomorrow that may never arrive. Ephesians 5:16 says, “Be very careful, then, how you live- not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity.” Know, with certainty, He has already equipped you for whatever specific task you’re assigned. May we lay our numbered days at the feet of a Sovereign God who is capable of doing glorious things in, and through, our lives.